What if?…What if?
Those two words replay in my mind like a broken record. What if I send that text? What if they don’t respond? What if they do but they really don’t want to be talking to me? What if this person doesn’t think I’m worth their time? What if I send that email? What if my ideas are just chaff on the wind and they won’t amount to anything?
What if? What if.
I’m a dreamer, and no matter what doubts I have, I cannot silence the loudest voices in my head—my dreams and aspirations. When it comes down to it, I have to ask myself this question: Is what I do worth all the ‘what ifs’? The answer is always Yes. Why? Because growth is a huge part of everything I set out to accomplish. With growth comes failure. So no matter how many ‘what ifs’ I compile, they don’t matter.
You could make a list of all the things that could go wrong in your life. In fact, why don’t you take a piece of paper and start writing down every scenario you can think of? Eventually you’ll realize this list could go on for an infinite amount of time. You could sit here and write your life away about what may never happen and never truly experience the brilliance of what could happen.
To be honest here, I am far from being the picture of perfection. I am an expert at creating reasons to worry about the tiniest things. I get it. But I also know that Living doesn’t happen without your participation. Neither does success. And this doesn’t have to relate only to your dreams and aspirations either, this can be related to any aspect of your life. If you never take chances, you’ve already lost.
This deep pit of contemplation is a horrible place to settle in. Here I am, staring at a letter I may send. Here I am, writing songs and stories I may never show to the world. Here I am, letting life pass me by because I’m too scared. Here I am, holding onto every ounce of who I am in a box in a deep dark closet in my soul. Here I am, learning to let it all go.
Sometimes I think the only ‘what if’ we should ask ourselves is the ‘what if I never take that leap? How much would I regret if I don’t?’.